So here is the second dream to go with the first post of the same title. This dream was significant to me as well so much so that wrote it down after waking up. Jessica (?) and I were in the mall. Maybe it was woodfield mall? Or not , it was a mall that... Continue Reading →
Ego Prison
Nothing seems to have certainty except for the three phases of existence (birth , life and death). You ever feel like you wanna do something but your body won’t let you? Sometimes I feel like a prisoner in my own my body. Not like those people who think they were meant to be a man... Continue Reading →
Some Success on my Part
I said in my previous blog I would start writing about my past , as sort of a therapeutic session. Well that’s not this post. It’s not this post because I am not in a depressed state , not right now. Life is like a roller coaster, sometimes your ascending and sometimes you take a... Continue Reading →
Masturbation and the Depression following it
Society of the past used to shame you for being sexually active, didn’t really matter your gender. Some articles I’ve read cite religious beliefs. For me I feel shame post ejaculation , I’m positive that I am not the only one who must be feeling this way ? I have read that some this has... Continue Reading →
Failure and Giving up
Most of my life I have failed. I would like to think I am not alone, a lot of people try things and don’t succeed. But it’s how you decide to handle it that matters. I’ve always chalked it up to bad luck. Trying something and failing. Or I’ve given myself to much credit for... Continue Reading →
This doesn’t deserve a thoughtful title
Another day of feeling down , my moods tend to ebb and flow like the ocean. I start work at 5pm , don’t really want to go. I like that the job is easy but the pay is garbage and I don’t necessarily enjoy being there. I try to make the best of it and... Continue Reading →
Sold my Car to Carvana.. it was easy
So today is one of those days. You know , the kind where you just feel like everything is off. It is quite difficult to determine if life (or god , or Allah or the universe, whatever you believe) is challenging you every step of the way ‘cause they want to see if you are... Continue Reading →
Should you follow your brain or gut on decision making ?
Should you follow your logic or intuition on decision making ? - my opinion There is always an internal battle for when you are trying to do something that’s not usual for you. I plan on selling my car and I am currently going through this internal battle. The tug-o-war between my brain and heart... Continue Reading →
The worst things happen…sometimes
So in October, the 9th to be exact, I had begun crafting a post. The post topic was about happiness and my philosophical view on the matter. It was very thorough , organized and with a few links. It would be the first post I didn’t just sit down and write what came to my... Continue Reading →
Being grateful can help with Depression
It's very hard to write when i have all my ideas while i'm walking. I don't know why this happens but for some reason I get a flood of ideas while going on a long walk. I was considering using this blog to write more 'journalistic' reviews , but I realized this was not something... Continue Reading →
We Hate Josh 